Friday, February 27 running away as fast as i can.. ;
i promised you i will pen no more of these sad thoughts. but i cant help it. i have so much to sort out. i have no idea what am i doing with my life, my love life. i dont know what am i doing! someone tell me? please?
why am i paranoid? sensitive? jealous, crying? why am i nuts, crazy, cranked up, tired and sick? why?
i think this entree is getting nowhere. it's out of point, it makes no sense.
sometimes i wish i could relive my life. i could change everything i knew, i could go hide in some lil' corner where no one can see me and cry and cry and cry my 80 years away.
maybe i'll know the answers to my questions tomorrow. maybe never. maybe i'll be single tomorrow. who knows? i hate my life. just go away ok? please.
x 11:17 PM
Wednesday, February 25 running away as fast as i can.. ;
thanks jan and kana for listening to my whines and stuffies.
just flipping through last year's PL mag.. all those colours just reminds me so much of 4A.. it's so vibrant and beautiful! i miss everyone out there.. all those many laughters we shared.. how i wish that when i wake up tomorrow, i'll be in PL. in 4A. i wish....
x 10:13 PM
Monday, February 23 running away as fast as i can.. ;
changes are inevitable.. people change from time to time. and i guess every single one of you. oops. correction. it's US. we all have that monster be it if you show or hide it behind that facade that evolves at night. i really have no idea what is this entree for. just feeling AP today. wait. everyday. *bittersweet's a lovely taste aint it.*
x 1:40 PM
Friday, February 20 running away as fast as i can.. ;
dont you just love this show? *dreams*
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
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tml's is my road run and i just cant run for nuts! *sLaPsFoReHeAd* how? sigh.. just go and make a fool out of myself.. my stamina's just really bad.. ='[
anyhu, i'm so looking forward to Fun-O-Rama! just cant wait to be there! *beams* hope it'll be good! =] loveya world! i love you.
x 9:37 PM
Saturday, February 14 running away as fast as i can.. ;
thanks pingyu! happy v'day to you too!!
I had a really fantabulous time tonight!
I love you so much! *mUaCkZ* Thanks for every single surprise you gave me! =]
tonight my angel gave me a pair of wings. i'm watching you from cloud nine. every singel move you make, every word you speak just makes me melt like that sweet cream in the warm sun. i'm overjoyed, i'm elated. i'm so in love. =]
i feel it in my fingers.
i feel it in my toes.
love is all around me.
and so the feeling grows.
i hope it'll never stop growing!
happy valentine's day to everyone out there! Love actually is All around! =]
x 11:49 PM
Friday, February 6 running away as fast as i can.. ;
i'm so so thankful to that one greatest invention- the telephone. i've finally realised what is the root of all those many tiffs we've had. i guess every relationship needs that fundermental communication.
i'm fine tonight. happier than the many nights i have had in the past month. i thank God we talked things out. i'm glad i didn't give up. thanks my darlings for giving me the love i need.. really dont know what i am without you guys.. you all mean a lot to me ok? remember that!
boonie dear: love you lots. really!! when i'm les i'll tell you kee? hehe.. =] thanks babe.. thanks for being there! *hUgS back*
x 11:00 PM
running away as fast as i can.. ;
i utterly hate myself for falling in love. it's so so deep that i cannot get myself out of it. i really dont know what to do. here i am, hanging on to something which i have no confidence in. hodling onto this brings me so much pain. yet i am not yet willing to give up. why am i so confused! i really wish i've gotten some kind of weird terminal illness that will take me out of the surface of this earth. i dunnoe where i might end up, i just hope it's a more beautiful place.
if this ends, trust me. i'll never fall in love again. =]
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What do you get when you fall in love?
A boy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again
What do you get when you kiss a boy
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia
After you do, he'll never phone ya
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again
Don't tell me what it's all about
'cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm not
Out of those chains those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you
What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow
So far at least until tomorrow
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again
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why do guys all lie. why?
i'm turning les. anybody wants me?
joan: *hUgGiEs* thankee dearie!! i'm in school now and you're doing your math test! =]
shuming: i miss you! *hUgZ* missed those many laughs we've had. i'm having lesser now.. much lesser.
x 12:01 PM
Sunday, February 1 running away as fast as i can.. ;
my vision blurred and tears flowed down my cheek. for this past month that was my bed time story. today's the 1st of feb. a brand new month to this new born year. yet that pain still surge. it rises as faster than you can say "stop". i deny that it's my fault. you took my heart, then my trust. placed it gently in your hands before you tore them up and scatter the broken pieces into the river tears.
this evening on my way to my uncle's home, the radio was on and the deejay was reading out dedications. letters are letters, msges after msges. they all glorify love. is it so true that you can love someone forever? is it so real that you can foresee your beautiful future? i guess my heart is numbed. it bled, it was torn, it's now damaged, brutally hurt.
those i love you forever are plain lies. they are plain cliche phrases to beautify love. wait, what's love?
if you happen to know that real meaning, enlighten me. i need to know. please.
i wish you were here. anyone. please. gimme a hug to warm this cold cold heart. it's dying. ='[
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How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow,
Birds high up the trees
Serenade the clouds with their melodies
Oh, see there beyond the hill,
The bright colors of the rainbow.
Some magic from above
Made this day for us just to fall in love
Now, I belong to you
From this day until forever,
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you every part of me.
Oh, don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without us.
Be always true to me,
Keep this day in your heart eternally.
One day we shall return
To this place upon the meadow.
We'll walk out in the rain,
See the birds above singing once again
Oh, you hold me in your arms,
And say once again you love me,
And if your love is true,
Everything will be just as wonderful.
You'll hold me in your arms,
And say once again you'll love me,
And if your love is true,
Everything will be just as wonderful.
boonie baby!! i miss you tonns too!!! *hUgZ* we've gotta meet up soon ok?
sheryl dearie!!!!!!!! it's been so long since i last saw you! wish you were here. miss you guys a whole lot. i wish i was still in PL with all of you by my side.. ='[
x 11:46 PM